Do you ever wish you could look at the world through someone elses eyes? View things with their thoughts and their experiences. Think of how much you could learn if it was possible.... and if you only did with 5people, especially if they were of a different age, country, sex, SEXUALL PREFRENCE, religion or social status. Imagin how truly tolerant and understand of others you become.
Sometimes when I'm sitting, listing and watching others I think it should be mandatory. I sit in my gov. class and listin to the students bash gay's, litterly reffering to a formerly graduated cross dresser as "IT"-the teacher did nothing to stop it, no he actully reffered to this living,feeling human being as "IT" also.They said that every gay person should be put into another school, a school of their own, that gay's were just corrupting society [so in other words we should treat them the way Hitler treated the jew's??!!] It is times like thoes that I not only want to force them to live that unique individuals life, but I also want so bad to see it from THEIR point of view, to understand who-if there is a who-instilled these beliefs into them. I want to not feel so damned hypocritical for not tolerationg their intolerance.
I only half wish that we could all just agree but knowing that if we did I would hate it, as much as it annoys and angers me, I love the conflict,the anger, the pain, the fights, the beauty in all the chaos.If everyone were the same the would would be skating a little to close to that "ideal" world. And as attractive as the "perfect" world may seem at times, it  would in fact be my living hell. The world needs varity, it makes things intresting, makes it worth living..... there is so much to see and learn, to take in and experience. So I guess in a way this IS a perfect world..... no, not perfect, perfect is to boring a word-but what other word can be used to describe it-perfection is such an ugly word, by saying that something is perfect means that it is done. Never changing, there is no room for growth.... no change.

I'v heard people say they feel so small standing next to the ocean but I feel so small and overwhelmed next to my thoughts and all the knowlege out there. I take pride in generally being able to see all sides of a situation, moral or belief, I see in mostly gray, but I can comprehend and understand the black and white. This tends to make it incredibly hard for me to say that something is truly wrong or truly right. There are just so many sides to everything, which I guess means that nobody is truly right or wrong.
And that thought can be completley liberating-"so no matter what I do, no matter how devious my act, I'm actully justified- on the flip side however it is utterly terrifying-I can't seem to begin to put my thought's and feelings [and there are MANY] behind this one into words... maybe you can.

I wholeheartedly wish that I could just get one thought out without immediatly finding and believing it's contradiction.